is it over?

4th exam just finished today.
in fact, this is the worst exam i've had so far. the thought of failing is very real. wrote a lot of rubbish, only sure of less than half the marks to pass.

my friend wrote: "life is exciting. anything can happen"

well, in some ways it shows that God is the ultimate Creator and Perfector of our lives, but on the other hand, I am a mere human, and sometimes I just want to be sure of 'something'.

i started the exam season with a mean mean exam, then one essay-based exam which caused my arm to hurt for 2 days (due to 2 hours non-stop writing), and then my favourite micro3 shed some hope, and it just have to end with a low note.

Steven Edward Stern, my lecturer for Stochastic Modelling last year, and Risk Theory this year. He is a person I will remember - for the joy and tears he brought me through stats. He's the first lecturer (or person, really) that I know who can make jokes and 'life-lessons' from stats, creating my interest in the subject, and only person so far to put my life in potential ruin because of stats. Love of hate him?

anyway, there's still a take-home exam to do. 48 hours. and then it is the holidays.

it's not over, certainly not. Dear God, please show me the way.